One of my children is moving and we ended up having to return to Ontario Works because my husband has not found an apprenticeship as of yet. The rent is too expensive for a family of 4. We now get 1304 a month. 702 for groceries, 602 for basic needs. Our rent is 846 plus hydro 40-50 a month depending on how hot it is to raise the usage on our fan.
They also are recovering an overpayment which takes 5% of our income or 65.20 before we even get started.
Today I asked for some more bus tickets for 3 doctor's appointments that I need to go to. My husband decided to hand the phone to me and she told me that she didn't really need/want to speak to me ( I can't remember for sure which word she used) but okay. She then said she would give me the tickets but that I shouldn't make a habit of it. That I should budget better. I told her that I budget as best I can considering I have to deduct rent from part of our basic needs budget which is meant to be for food and hydro. She said just like when I go grocery shopping I have to budget, I need to budget for my bus fare. This mass number of doctor's appointments wasn't expected. I thought I'd be seeing my doctor last month after I finished the intake but it was another appointment after that.
I was so angry and embarrassed that I said then I guess I just won't go anywhere and I hung up on her. When we got home hubby called again and she said that we could have continued to talk if I hadn't hung up on her. She wasn't talking to me, she was talking AT me. I am a parent I know what a lecture is.
When you are on a disability deferral, it's like you don't exist. Your name is there, you get a drug benefit and emergency dental as well as vision care, but you get nothing else. No buspass, no haircut nothing. I have been inside my house because we can't afford bus fare for me for 4 yrs, I've gone out a few times, but it's always created a hard spot because of transportation costs for tickets. Having spent this much time away from other people I now find I don't like to talk to people I don't know, I don't want to go out much but make myself because I know it would just be worse if I didn't, and I grow weary of the four walls.
I could get a buspass if doctor needs to see me frequently but not if I get prescribed exercise or getting out to keep from getting full blown anxiety issues. I guess I'll never understand how the system works. Or perhaps I should say I understand too well how the system DOESN'T work.
Thursday, 3 July 2014
Wednesday, 23 April 2014
What next?
Lets see what IS on my mind...oh the HYDRO is going up yet again.
Another rate climb to match the date when they switch "time of day
usage". It will be so much fun to have no fan, no classes, no nothing
because the hydro will be:
Consumers will pay the steepest price for electricity, 13.5 cents kW/h, weekdays between 11 a.m. and 5 p.m.
The on-peak power price is up 0.6 cents kW/h.
Consumers will pay the steepest price for electricity, 13.5 cents kW/h, weekdays between 11 a.m. and 5 p.m.
The on-peak power price is up 0.6 cents kW/h.
I wonder how uncomfortable it will be for seniors and disabled people this summer?
The rest of the rates are: — 7.5 cents kW/h, up 0.3 cents — in the overnight weekday hours of 7 p.m. to 7 a.m. and on all weekends and holidays.
The cost to use electricity on weekdays between 7-11 a.m. and 5-7 p.m. will be 11.2 cents kW/h, also an increase of 0.3 cents.
I get they want us to be energy conscious and efficient. WE in this family are. It just feels like they want more profits because people are being "energy conscious" and so they hike again...and again and again. Our family spends about 50-65 a month on hydro, and we find it too much. We restrict usage so much it feels more like a prison than a home. But still the rates climb and we are left holding the bag, restricting further etc.
I am not sure how much more we can restrict, so I'm going to do my part. Come May 1 I will try to be off the hydro during the daytime, using battery only at 1pm to talk to spouse. Then back off till night time. No fan either.
No courses, I wouldn't have the time to devote to them. Busfare in this city is not all that cheap so I won't be going anywhere. I'd just like to know what else Ontario Hydro would love us poor, seniors and disabled to do next.
The rest of the rates are: — 7.5 cents kW/h, up 0.3 cents — in the overnight weekday hours of 7 p.m. to 7 a.m. and on all weekends and holidays.
The cost to use electricity on weekdays between 7-11 a.m. and 5-7 p.m. will be 11.2 cents kW/h, also an increase of 0.3 cents.
I get they want us to be energy conscious and efficient. WE in this family are. It just feels like they want more profits because people are being "energy conscious" and so they hike again...and again and again. Our family spends about 50-65 a month on hydro, and we find it too much. We restrict usage so much it feels more like a prison than a home. But still the rates climb and we are left holding the bag, restricting further etc.
I am not sure how much more we can restrict, so I'm going to do my part. Come May 1 I will try to be off the hydro during the daytime, using battery only at 1pm to talk to spouse. Then back off till night time. No fan either.
No courses, I wouldn't have the time to devote to them. Busfare in this city is not all that cheap so I won't be going anywhere. I'd just like to know what else Ontario Hydro would love us poor, seniors and disabled to do next.
Wednesday, 2 April 2014
Workhouses then and now
Watched an interesting movie lately about workhouses/poorhouses. These institutions existed once to shelter those with absolutely no money and no place to go. They were run by government and they made it their mission in life to make these poor folks feel like garbage for having to use the service.
Once you entered such a place your dignity was stripped, your family separated and they treated you to the meanest food and hardest labor, they wanted you to be "incentivized" to find "real work". Many who lived and worked in these places, died in these places.
I couldn't help but notice a few parallels as I watched. The idea that when a family goes to sign up for workfare, they give you the meanest amount of money they can, nothing to survive on, just enough to make you aware that you should be working a "real job". Not that the humiliation of going there isn't really an incentive on it's own, but they want to make sure you understand you are basically getting a handout, and since you are such a loser, they will treat you like one.
The only difference I can see is the shelter is not supplied today.
Lets check this off:
humiliate the poor and keep them so destitute they will take the meanest job (check)
make it impossible to get access to good nutritious food (check)
limit the poor to overcrowded conditions or poor housing (check)
I hear all the time that we can't trust those who are poor, they will just fritter those hard earned tax dollars away. How is this for fair?
I would gladly let them pay my rent for me directly and give me food stamps if it was enough to feed, and shelter my family while I am looking for work. Amazing how much dignity one can be willing to give up in order to make life better for their family. Happily I would accept whatever voucher system was required to make things happen. It would definitely be better than having to choose between rent, hydro and food.
Now lets take a peek into something else: those in government, those people who say we are bums and good for nothings, they themselves receive over 100,000 a year in salary. Some of these people will actually get a pension/salary for the REST OF THEIR LIVES for having served as a politician. They would never have to work again since these pensions/salaries are so high but hey, they aren't leeches, they aren't getting government welfare after they lose their jobs are they? I think if some people think about it, they will see that the money they pay out to "retired" and politicians who have lost in their riding is a whole lot more than someone on assistance. The only difference is that the politicians can afford a nicer suit.
Perhaps one should think about who is saying things about the poor, and about what happened to the sense of charity that used to be so commonplace.
Once you entered such a place your dignity was stripped, your family separated and they treated you to the meanest food and hardest labor, they wanted you to be "incentivized" to find "real work". Many who lived and worked in these places, died in these places.
I couldn't help but notice a few parallels as I watched. The idea that when a family goes to sign up for workfare, they give you the meanest amount of money they can, nothing to survive on, just enough to make you aware that you should be working a "real job". Not that the humiliation of going there isn't really an incentive on it's own, but they want to make sure you understand you are basically getting a handout, and since you are such a loser, they will treat you like one.
The only difference I can see is the shelter is not supplied today.
Lets check this off:
humiliate the poor and keep them so destitute they will take the meanest job (check)
make it impossible to get access to good nutritious food (check)
limit the poor to overcrowded conditions or poor housing (check)
I hear all the time that we can't trust those who are poor, they will just fritter those hard earned tax dollars away. How is this for fair?
I would gladly let them pay my rent for me directly and give me food stamps if it was enough to feed, and shelter my family while I am looking for work. Amazing how much dignity one can be willing to give up in order to make life better for their family. Happily I would accept whatever voucher system was required to make things happen. It would definitely be better than having to choose between rent, hydro and food.
Now lets take a peek into something else: those in government, those people who say we are bums and good for nothings, they themselves receive over 100,000 a year in salary. Some of these people will actually get a pension/salary for the REST OF THEIR LIVES for having served as a politician. They would never have to work again since these pensions/salaries are so high but hey, they aren't leeches, they aren't getting government welfare after they lose their jobs are they? I think if some people think about it, they will see that the money they pay out to "retired" and politicians who have lost in their riding is a whole lot more than someone on assistance. The only difference is that the politicians can afford a nicer suit.
Perhaps one should think about who is saying things about the poor, and about what happened to the sense of charity that used to be so commonplace.
Friday, 6 December 2013
Update
Well I guess 2nd Career isn't really all that interested in my son and daughter's money....just mine should I make any. It seems silly that they want you to get educated and get a job but make it so darned difficult to live while you do that you want to scream at them "hey why don't you trade places and give it a go....see how long you last for". Not that it would do much good, they'd simply stay calm and ma'am me to death LOL.
Meeghan still has heard nothing about an interview for a potential part time job at the cafe she just finished doing her training at. It is very stressful for her, she hasn't enough money to pay for medication for the next month, so she will likely have to miss a month. We are still trying to see if the ODB will now cover her since she is now without work...but since our file with OW would have been closed after 2 months off....it doesn't seem like there is much hope there. We can't afford to pay into the Trillium premiums up front so it's leaving things hanging quite a bit.
Then I listened to a radio broadcast yesterday where they were talking about all the people who went to St. Mary's seeking employment. About a 1000 applicants for 300 some odd jobs. Of course the radio host (why did I put on the radio when there was no power yesterday...I must be nuts LOL) he was wondering why it wasn't more. Well let me think...when you have a family you have to look at the big picture.
The way EI is set up and now OW (no more help with moving expenses) taking a job "anywhere" doesn't seem like an option if you have NOTHING you can use to pay for the trip. Family is great if you have one, or if they have money and no struggles either. For the St. Mary's one, a working car and gas money is likely a requirement. I know we have problems trying to do the job bit in the city where we need to use a bus to get to places. A lot of work is "not on a bus route" and it is frustrating beyond all reason.
On another topic, my weaving has been steadily improving...I'm hoping to someday, maybe...turn it into a way to make money to help out with expenses around the house. Not sure about the sketching bit...I'm a bit rusty now from lack of use LOL.
Anyway that's about it from the stuggling to survive family of nuts here. Take care!
Meeghan still has heard nothing about an interview for a potential part time job at the cafe she just finished doing her training at. It is very stressful for her, she hasn't enough money to pay for medication for the next month, so she will likely have to miss a month. We are still trying to see if the ODB will now cover her since she is now without work...but since our file with OW would have been closed after 2 months off....it doesn't seem like there is much hope there. We can't afford to pay into the Trillium premiums up front so it's leaving things hanging quite a bit.
Then I listened to a radio broadcast yesterday where they were talking about all the people who went to St. Mary's seeking employment. About a 1000 applicants for 300 some odd jobs. Of course the radio host (why did I put on the radio when there was no power yesterday...I must be nuts LOL) he was wondering why it wasn't more. Well let me think...when you have a family you have to look at the big picture.
The way EI is set up and now OW (no more help with moving expenses) taking a job "anywhere" doesn't seem like an option if you have NOTHING you can use to pay for the trip. Family is great if you have one, or if they have money and no struggles either. For the St. Mary's one, a working car and gas money is likely a requirement. I know we have problems trying to do the job bit in the city where we need to use a bus to get to places. A lot of work is "not on a bus route" and it is frustrating beyond all reason.
On another topic, my weaving has been steadily improving...I'm hoping to someday, maybe...turn it into a way to make money to help out with expenses around the house. Not sure about the sketching bit...I'm a bit rusty now from lack of use LOL.
Anyway that's about it from the stuggling to survive family of nuts here. Take care!
Monday, 25 November 2013
update: otherwise known as where the heck have you been?
Okay I know I've been away too long and I'm sure that for the most part no one has noticed LOL. I'm good with that I suppose since I'm not generally lucky enough to get noticed anyway.
Well life has been quite a rollercoaster since the last post. My two oldest had found temporary employment training opportunities which of course meant that our income in the house went up enough to ditch us off the system. That means the ODB otherwise known as the Ontario Drug Benefit card was ditched as well. Now I know the Trillium Drug Program exists, but there is a "co pay" you have to finish before you can get medication at a reduced price. As someone on a very small income (yes their income plus my husband's Second Career is very small when you consider the family size here), I wonder where the chunk of money to purchase our deductible will come from first.
My daughter has medications that run into the $300 dollars a month range and that is a huge chunk of money to contemplate. Now to understand why this happened you have to understand how the system works.
When the kids got their jobs they were both evaluated as if they were a single person living on OW. If their income was above the single person line, they were booted off. BUT when it comes to trying to extend our Drug Benefit....my daughter is considered a "dependent adult" go figure huh? It works to the advantage of the system from both directions. It also means she can't get help for her meds. IF she lived on her own, which there is no way she could afford to do, OW would allow her to continue to receive a Drug Benefit card for herself.
Also we are now waiting to see what happens with 2nd career. They also need to know when family members earn money "to avoid overpayments". I'm almost afraid they will take money from my husband's amount. Yet my spouse does not "qualify" for ANY bursaries or work programs through his college. He's left adrift and on his own, applying here and there hoping sometime soon, someone will give him a call.
The system we have in place is crazy, they give you nothing to support your family with while you go to 2nd career, yet could potentially deduct money if my family makes too much. I really don't want to be asking my kids to give me all their money and there is no way they could afford that and manage to keep on getting clothes etc for work.
So I'm going to keep the fingers crossed that it works out for us and in the meantime try to get better, because well....if you don't have your health it can be a problem for getting anywhere in life.
Well life has been quite a rollercoaster since the last post. My two oldest had found temporary employment training opportunities which of course meant that our income in the house went up enough to ditch us off the system. That means the ODB otherwise known as the Ontario Drug Benefit card was ditched as well. Now I know the Trillium Drug Program exists, but there is a "co pay" you have to finish before you can get medication at a reduced price. As someone on a very small income (yes their income plus my husband's Second Career is very small when you consider the family size here), I wonder where the chunk of money to purchase our deductible will come from first.
My daughter has medications that run into the $300 dollars a month range and that is a huge chunk of money to contemplate. Now to understand why this happened you have to understand how the system works.
When the kids got their jobs they were both evaluated as if they were a single person living on OW. If their income was above the single person line, they were booted off. BUT when it comes to trying to extend our Drug Benefit....my daughter is considered a "dependent adult" go figure huh? It works to the advantage of the system from both directions. It also means she can't get help for her meds. IF she lived on her own, which there is no way she could afford to do, OW would allow her to continue to receive a Drug Benefit card for herself.
Also we are now waiting to see what happens with 2nd career. They also need to know when family members earn money "to avoid overpayments". I'm almost afraid they will take money from my husband's amount. Yet my spouse does not "qualify" for ANY bursaries or work programs through his college. He's left adrift and on his own, applying here and there hoping sometime soon, someone will give him a call.
The system we have in place is crazy, they give you nothing to support your family with while you go to 2nd career, yet could potentially deduct money if my family makes too much. I really don't want to be asking my kids to give me all their money and there is no way they could afford that and manage to keep on getting clothes etc for work.
So I'm going to keep the fingers crossed that it works out for us and in the meantime try to get better, because well....if you don't have your health it can be a problem for getting anywhere in life.
Tuesday, 8 October 2013
A sad State of Affairs
I've been watching the whole fiasco with the USA and their recent government shut down. At first I thought it would be like proroguing Parliament. That life and everything else would go on but the politicians wouldn't get anything done. What it is in actuality is a whole lot worse. NOTHING gets done, everything "governmental" gets shut down and you can't get information on anything, you can't get money if you are poor and trying to survive and people are out of work because of places being shuttered.
I thought it was crazy when I heard that their system seems to keep everything so close together that it in fact seems to harm everyone when the great wheels stop turning. At the center of this is a controversy that seems so asinine that it goes beyond the pale.
One side is saying that they want to see the Obamacare or Affordable Healthcare Act underfunded or defunded altogether because it is "bad, awful, takes away your rights etc".
Other side is saying that these people are nuts, that the plan just makes things better for everyone but allowing all people to finally get some health insurance.
The one side doesn't seem to care about the fact that people are going hungry etc....they just seem to want to win their little concession especially with regards to women's rights to contraception among other stupidity.
The other side doesn't want to give in and be seen as weak. They definitely don't wish to negotiate with "hostage takers". I just think it is sad that the INNOCENT are being caught in the middle of this.
I know from personal experience that Social medicine isn't always a good thing, but it is infinitely better than your family starving or being put on the street because you can't pay your doctor/hospital bills.
I also know that this new plan for "ObamaCare" is NOT social medicine. It is something else entirely, something meant to appeal to those fools who can't bring themselves to pay more taxes so that everyone can benefit from better medical care.
It puzzles me that no one can seem to trust their news sources etc to report what Obama care REALLY means. Some have tried only to be called liars.
So when does this foolishness end? Does it end with the winter? I just hope things get sorted before EVERYTHING goes to heck. I'll keep my fingers crossed.
I thought it was crazy when I heard that their system seems to keep everything so close together that it in fact seems to harm everyone when the great wheels stop turning. At the center of this is a controversy that seems so asinine that it goes beyond the pale.
One side is saying that they want to see the Obamacare or Affordable Healthcare Act underfunded or defunded altogether because it is "bad, awful, takes away your rights etc".
Other side is saying that these people are nuts, that the plan just makes things better for everyone but allowing all people to finally get some health insurance.
The one side doesn't seem to care about the fact that people are going hungry etc....they just seem to want to win their little concession especially with regards to women's rights to contraception among other stupidity.
The other side doesn't want to give in and be seen as weak. They definitely don't wish to negotiate with "hostage takers". I just think it is sad that the INNOCENT are being caught in the middle of this.
I know from personal experience that Social medicine isn't always a good thing, but it is infinitely better than your family starving or being put on the street because you can't pay your doctor/hospital bills.
I also know that this new plan for "ObamaCare" is NOT social medicine. It is something else entirely, something meant to appeal to those fools who can't bring themselves to pay more taxes so that everyone can benefit from better medical care.
It puzzles me that no one can seem to trust their news sources etc to report what Obama care REALLY means. Some have tried only to be called liars.
So when does this foolishness end? Does it end with the winter? I just hope things get sorted before EVERYTHING goes to heck. I'll keep my fingers crossed.
Thursday, 29 August 2013
Something that made me think for a bit today.
This poem was shared today on Facebook. It was part of a post that was a hoax but I felt that the poem itself should be kept, because someone wrote it. From the way it was written, I'd say it was written by someone who had experience with the drug, or someone who had a loved one who takes it or died while taking it.
Rich or poor, drugs can destroy us all, but when it is the poor....people want to see them "pee in a jar" to get their welfare benefits. IF the person comes out as an addict, they lose their benefits. Do they get help? Probably not. Instead everyone uses it to point and say "see I told you THOSE people were all bad, using OUR tax money to do drugs. We were so right to test them.
Those who are addicted to drugs deserve our patience and understanding. Drugs and drug use can make people who would normally have been your best friends, into people you don't know anymore. It can make a lover into a killer, an honest person into a thief.
I don't know what the answer to drugs is...I don't think anyone really does. I don't think that making it illegal has helped. It only creates more criminals...not less incentive to use them. Laws harm those who are using drugs to help them with pain.
Would legalizing drugs help? I don't really know...maybe. I mean humans do have a habit of wanting to do something just because it is "rebellious" to do. If you take away it's illegal status it's just like alcohol and tobacco. Those are also drugs, they do as much harm to people and cost just as much as the street drugs that are taken.
Perhaps legalizing drugs means you can issue permits and licenses to sell them, tax the profits made and use the taxes to pay for programs to help get people off them. I don't know. I don't pretend to know the answer to this problem.
I just know that shaming and blaming people for not being like everyone else has got to STOP.
Shame and blame doesn't cure people. It just hurts them more. Driving them deeper into whatever it is they are doing that hurts themselves and their communities.
Pretend you have a heart, act like you have some compassion.....stop making people feel bad so you can make yourself feel better.
LECTURE OVER: Now here is the poem. (if anyone knows who the writer is, feel free to share below), IF you have any poetry etc you'd like to share about this topic or any other, feel free to comment. I won't bite you. ( I promise).
My Name Is "Meth"
I destroy homes, I tear families apart, take your children, and that's just the start.
I'm more costly than diamonds, more precious than gold,
The sorrow I bring is a sight to behold.
If you need me, remember I'm easily found,
I live all around you - in schools and in town.
I live with the rich; I live with the poor,
I live down the street, and maybe next door.
I'm made in a lab, but not like you think,
I can be made under the kitchen sink.
In your child's closet, and even in the woods,
If this scares you to death, well it certainly should.
I have many names, but there's one you know best,
I'm sure you've heard of me, my name is crystal meth.
My power is awesome; try me you'll see,
But if you do, you may never break free.
Just try me once and I might let you go,
But try me twice, and I'll own your soul.
When I possess you, you'll steal and you'll lie,
You do what you have to -- just to get high.
The crimes you'll commit for my narcotic charms
Will be worth the pleasure you'll feel in your arms,
your lungs your nose.
You'll lie to your mother; you'll steal from your dad,
When you see their tears, you should feel sad.
But you'll forget your morals and how you were raised,
I'll be your conscience, I'll teach you my ways.
I take kids from parents, and parents from kids,
I turn people from God, and separate friends.
I'll take everything from you, your looks and your pride,
I'll be with you always -- right by your side.
You'll give up everything - your family, your home,
Your friends, your money, then you'll be alone.
I'll take and take, till you have nothing more to give,
When I'm finished with you, you'll be lucky to live.
If you try me be warned - this is no game,
If given the chance, I'll drive you insane.
I'll ravish your body, I'll control your mind,
I'll own you completely, your soul will be mine.
The nightmares I'll give you while lying in bed,
The voices you'll hear, from inside your head.
The sweats, the shakes, the visions you'll see,
I want you to know, these are all gifts from me.
But then it's too late, and you'll know in your heart,
That you are mine, and we shall not part.
You'll regret that you tried me, they always do,
But you came to me, not I to you.
You knew this would happen, many times you were told,
But you challenged my power, and chose to be bold.
You could have said no, and just walked away,
If you could live that day over, now what would you say?
I'll be your master, you will be my slave,
I'll even go with you, when you go to your grave.
Now that you have met me, what will you do?
Will you try me or not? It's all up to you.
I can bring you more misery than words can tell,
Come take my hand, let me lead you to hell.
Rich or poor, drugs can destroy us all, but when it is the poor....people want to see them "pee in a jar" to get their welfare benefits. IF the person comes out as an addict, they lose their benefits. Do they get help? Probably not. Instead everyone uses it to point and say "see I told you THOSE people were all bad, using OUR tax money to do drugs. We were so right to test them.
Those who are addicted to drugs deserve our patience and understanding. Drugs and drug use can make people who would normally have been your best friends, into people you don't know anymore. It can make a lover into a killer, an honest person into a thief.
I don't know what the answer to drugs is...I don't think anyone really does. I don't think that making it illegal has helped. It only creates more criminals...not less incentive to use them. Laws harm those who are using drugs to help them with pain.
Would legalizing drugs help? I don't really know...maybe. I mean humans do have a habit of wanting to do something just because it is "rebellious" to do. If you take away it's illegal status it's just like alcohol and tobacco. Those are also drugs, they do as much harm to people and cost just as much as the street drugs that are taken.
Perhaps legalizing drugs means you can issue permits and licenses to sell them, tax the profits made and use the taxes to pay for programs to help get people off them. I don't know. I don't pretend to know the answer to this problem.
I just know that shaming and blaming people for not being like everyone else has got to STOP.
Shame and blame doesn't cure people. It just hurts them more. Driving them deeper into whatever it is they are doing that hurts themselves and their communities.
Pretend you have a heart, act like you have some compassion.....stop making people feel bad so you can make yourself feel better.
LECTURE OVER: Now here is the poem. (if anyone knows who the writer is, feel free to share below), IF you have any poetry etc you'd like to share about this topic or any other, feel free to comment. I won't bite you. ( I promise).
My Name Is "Meth"
I destroy homes, I tear families apart, take your children, and that's just the start.
I'm more costly than diamonds, more precious than gold,
The sorrow I bring is a sight to behold.
If you need me, remember I'm easily found,
I live all around you - in schools and in town.
I live with the rich; I live with the poor,
I live down the street, and maybe next door.
I'm made in a lab, but not like you think,
I can be made under the kitchen sink.
In your child's closet, and even in the woods,
If this scares you to death, well it certainly should.
I have many names, but there's one you know best,
I'm sure you've heard of me, my name is crystal meth.
My power is awesome; try me you'll see,
But if you do, you may never break free.
Just try me once and I might let you go,
But try me twice, and I'll own your soul.
When I possess you, you'll steal and you'll lie,
You do what you have to -- just to get high.
The crimes you'll commit for my narcotic charms
Will be worth the pleasure you'll feel in your arms,
your lungs your nose.
You'll lie to your mother; you'll steal from your dad,
When you see their tears, you should feel sad.
But you'll forget your morals and how you were raised,
I'll be your conscience, I'll teach you my ways.
I take kids from parents, and parents from kids,
I turn people from God, and separate friends.
I'll take everything from you, your looks and your pride,
I'll be with you always -- right by your side.
You'll give up everything - your family, your home,
Your friends, your money, then you'll be alone.
I'll take and take, till you have nothing more to give,
When I'm finished with you, you'll be lucky to live.
If you try me be warned - this is no game,
If given the chance, I'll drive you insane.
I'll ravish your body, I'll control your mind,
I'll own you completely, your soul will be mine.
The nightmares I'll give you while lying in bed,
The voices you'll hear, from inside your head.
The sweats, the shakes, the visions you'll see,
I want you to know, these are all gifts from me.
But then it's too late, and you'll know in your heart,
That you are mine, and we shall not part.
You'll regret that you tried me, they always do,
But you came to me, not I to you.
You knew this would happen, many times you were told,
But you challenged my power, and chose to be bold.
You could have said no, and just walked away,
If you could live that day over, now what would you say?
I'll be your master, you will be my slave,
I'll even go with you, when you go to your grave.
Now that you have met me, what will you do?
Will you try me or not? It's all up to you.
I can bring you more misery than words can tell,
Come take my hand, let me lead you to hell.
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